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BYE

END! (here..) hehe

Morning.
(Not a good start thou)
Woke up early in the morn. Bangunkan si melal yg malas tu (heheh). Then gi keje as usual. Niat nak gi keje awal2 supaya bleyh lepak2 breakfast kat bawah. Lagipon dah kene sound ngan warden ‘jangan lambat’ sbb ade bebudak Penta tu datang training.  But things turned out differently. Ergh! Jammed yg amat. Luar biasa nye jammed. Panjang. Geram. Bosan. Pandang kiri kanan..semenye sepet (chins) oh tidak tmasuk melal la of coz. Semenye nak cepat. Aku pon cam hati kering jugak. Jangan harap bleh himpit gwue. Tapi sekali skala tkandas. Shit. I hate u. Sampai opis  terus tapau nasik lemak. Then nak makan..basi! tak baik tau orang tu. Kuciwa. Then ade orang offered food. Tenks u’alls. (nanges..terharu) 

Wuhuhu. Rase cam sure badluck arini. Tapi tak baik caye bende2 cemtu. No no.. not good for ur health. Huhuh.

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Lunch.
Main CS laa of coz.
Then gi interview jadi trainer. (Dipaksa!)
Later lepak kat old town minum mocha ngan orang-orangan.
Patut aku tayah minum, sbb aku tau sure tak bleh tdoo ini malemmm. Huhu

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Nite.
Great.

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Thank you Allah.
25 years and I’m still alive.

One day a farmer ' s donkey fell down into a well. The animal cried piteously for hours as the farmer tried to figure out what to do. Finally, he decided the animal was old, and the well needed to be covered up anyway; it just wasn ' t worth it to retrieve the donkey.

He invited all his neighbors to come over and help him. They all grabbed a shovel and began to shovel dirt into the well. At first, the donkey realized what was happening and cried horribly. Then, to everyone ' s amazement he quieted down.

A few shovel loads later, the farmer finally looked down the well. He was astonished at what he saw. With each shovel of dirt that hit his back, the donkey was doing something amazing. He would shake it off and take a step up.

As the farmer ' s neighbors continued to shovel dirt on top of the animal, he would shake it off and take a step up. Pretty soon, everyone was amazed as the donkey stepped up over the edge of the well and happily trotted off!

MORAL (for me and you):
Life is going to shovel dirt on you, all kinds of dirt. The trick to getting out of the well is to shake it off and take a step up. Each of our troubles is a steppingstone. We can get out of the deepest wells just by not stopping, never giving up! Shake it off and take a step up.

 
Remember the five simple rules to be happy:
1. Free your heart from hatred - Forgive.
2. Free your mind from worries - Most never happens.
3. Live simply and appreciate what you have.
4. Give more.
5. Expect less from people but  more from Allah SWT

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best kan? wek :p
so chill peepsss!!

Saturday tengok elmoi. (patut hellboi kan?) wahaha sape la cakap elmoi tu kan? haha. lawak scene die nyanyi lagu  "i cant smile without you" ... suwit jugak. fanni pon ade. sekeras2 dan se'ego2 lelaki, bile bab perempuan ni..cam layu dan cair. ahhahaha .... nice.
g nonton bsama teman2. tapi saye sorang je perempuan? kenape? jeng jeng jeng. kerana saye bukan lelaki. huhuhuhuhuh....

borak2. bla bla. bcerita tentang dunia dan orang. la la la. rupenyer ade secret yg saye tatau dari seseorang atau due orang atau tige atau lebih? haha jeng jeng jeng. tapi kenape? ikot suke korang laa...
(jangan tanye apa dan siapa, saye takkan cakap... huhuhu)


B4 that went to taman warisan. had lunch wif family. mlm, bonda ku kene food poisonning. haih.. cobaan cobaan. pujuk2 mama gi doktor dah sejam lebih. liat mama ku sorang ni. sian die. lemah semacam. sepanjang gi klinik 24 jam kat mines tu...die cakap... " waa..sakit waa. mama sakit wa..." believe me. mama macam baby. haha merengek2 dengan ku.
hahahahahhahaa (fanni sket) memula terase nak sedih. tapi cam rase sia2 jer.
 i donno why,but this time i didnt feel sad. selalu nye kalo gi spital gi klinik, musti dah serabut. not this time ya. hihi. ye arr risau nye pasal kan? it hurts bile orang yg kite sayang tu sakit...

so sunday. wake up early in the morning . buat breakfast for mum. kasi mkn ubat. kemas rumah. basuh kain. lipat kain. hiburkan anak ku yg berbulu itu. masak sayur campur. masak ayam goreng + kentang goreng bercili. dan panaskan asam pedas. lunch. dan berehat sepanjang petang...


esok kerja as usual.

oh...ade permintaan cookies. ahaha akan saye buat lagi bagi memenuhi selera semua pihak.

Cuti lagi…

Went to HUKM wif mama. Checked mama nye sinus. Sian die. Bersin2 dan flu seme. Mata berair. Patut nye roni yg bawak mama. But then die kene pegi somewhere.
Dalam kete, ktorang borak-borak dewasa la. Uhuuhu. About life, future, dugaan, hikmah, rahmat, dan dot dot dot…
Kene brain wash jugak. (huhuhu)
Pestu tetibe jer..cakap pasal wasiat…
Haih la parents ku yg tercinta nih, asik2 sebut pasal wasiat. Jage ni..jage tu.. bla bla bla…
Uhuhuhuhhuu im not ready with any of ur wasiat…
Haha ni musti cubaan saiko kan aku..supaya aku mjadi lebih mulia dan suci dan btanggungjawab dan byk lagi....
Haha ape anak mu ni tak cukup baik ke wahai mama? Dah la tak kluar malam2 lagi. Tade life tau anak mu ni… huhuh stress. Sejak abah operate dari hari tu sampai harini.. life ku adalah mengenai family saje. Movie byk ketinggalan. Wuuwuu (nanges aar..haha) dating jauh skali… huhuhu.

Takpe aku akan cuba jadi angel. Dan mjage kalian sampai mata ni tertutup.

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2.30pm
 
I baked cookies today. It was fun. Ade sesuatu terjadi dan ia nye funny. Huhuhu
Gelak sensorang. Pestu mama datang join gelak. Ahahah wuteva.. asalkan bleh buat orang bahagia. (best kan gelak!)

 
Well… eveybody like it.
Wanted to bring to the offc. Tapi macamm er…. later la ..
Haha

 
Roni balik around 9.30pm, he ate it.
Yes. he like it.
“ko buat ni? Sedapp…”
Dalam hati ( “yey!” )

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Night.
 

Sad.
 

Bye.

 
End.

uhuks. once again. i failed to be strong.

nape la abah sakit lagi niii. i pray hard.
cant u see that im not that strong??? im weak. yes i am.

wut shud i do? mama pon dah start stress. tension. sakit. Penat.
"mum, i gotta probs that i wanna tell u. seems that u'r not the place that i can talk to at this moment.i need u too!."

i need someone to talk tooooo...

i need someone to make me laugh again...

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seme orang ade commitment masing-masing kan? it's not their fault. it's me who shud handle this by myself. i know, bukan budak kecik lagi. kalo ade sisters kan best... roomate ke? at least she will be by my side and listen to my stories.

im turning 26 a few more days.
why cudnt i be a happy person livin' an extraordinary life? go out wiff frens. hev fun. like others huh? Having lotsa fun with their own-supa-dupa-life. their own super future. laughing all day long.

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i dont wanna cry nymore, that's y i decided to be a heartless person. im tired of crying.
cant u see??? (but i failed... cause im such a cry-baby. bodoooohnye...)

uhuhu mental dah start sakit. end up pikir pasal mati.
tak baik kan? Lemah2… setan suke la. I hate u setan.

Huhu penat. mlm2 pon susah nak tdoo. sleepless.  mamai je hari2. kat offc asik mengantok. dah la sedih tablemate pindah tak abes lagi. :P hate u.

kalo la bleh ditransferkan penyakit  abah itu kepada saye, kan bagus...

(mnulis dlm keadaan mental yg sangat lemah..)

Monday 16june2008

I hate myself for being so weak.

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me sick today.
Dah pegi offc, tpakse balik smule ke rmah.
Flu, bersin sampai sakit dada, sakit tekak cam ade orang tikam tikam ngan jarum, pening2, bla..bla…
Ntah la.. restless semacam. Mayb sbb aircond kuat jgak, sweater tak bawak. Ngan mayb lalok ubat smalam tak abes lagi. Or mayb penat selepas vacation kat hosp selama 4 hari.

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I couldn't sleep last night. Risau. Mama and adik tdoo hosp, jaga abah. She said that she's not feeling well. Jantung sakit balik. Tapi degil nak tdoo hosp jugak. Ikutkan hati mmg nak suh mama balik je. Tapi abah lak tak boleh plak mama tade kat tepi.

Smalam, balik dari hosp around 10pm, packing barang2 mama nak bawak hosp esok, then kasi betty makan, pestu bagi diri sendri makan,pestu kemas rmah sket. After settle everything, pegi mandi around 11pm sbb panas sangat. Ingatkan ok, mase nak tdoo dah start dapat flu. Kol 1am tak ble tdoo2 lagi, bersin2. malas nak layan,buat dek je la. Try tdoo ...sukses. tapi kol 3 bangun gi carik oobat.  Padan muke sendrik. Gi amik ubat selseme. Dalam otak cam pk, nak sms melal tak jadi nak gi offc. Tapi takot dah lewat sangat nak inform. Kol 4am tjage lagi, kol 5am  pon jage jugak. Darn. Kol 6.15 bangun, solat, pestu iron baju. Rase cam ok jer. Teruskan je la niat g offc. Lagi pon cam dah btahun2 rase nye tak gi offc. Tapi rase cam 'melayang' jer.ntah. Around 10am, tpakse balik rmah sbb tak larat sangat2. rase seram sejuk. Rase yg tidak best. Rase yg sakit di tekak hidung otak dan segala2nye. Sorry to melal coz I didn't plan for this. I didn't know things turn up this way. Sorry sangat. Thanks to bomb sbb drive kan pulang. Really appreciate it.

 
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Uh-oh sesungguhnya saye sungguh letih. Cepat la abah balik rmah. I know mama lagi letih. Letih physical mental dan emosi. Wuu wuu.

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 Thanks family and frens for wishes, prayers and love

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Thursday 12june2008

Abah was admitted in Ampang Putri Specialist Hospital. Nurse ngan doctor die baiiiikk sangat. Senyum 24 hours. Friendly lagi. Family and cousins are there to support him.
Abah was happy that night. I can see from his face..heemmm.. hehe

Petang tu gi orentasi surgery. Derang bagitau ape akan blaku mase surgery before n after. Lepas magrib, seme orang wat solat hajat. Thanks! Balik rmah dalam kol 12 malam. Nobody stayed bcause abah dah mkn ubat tdoo. Die akan sedar subuh esok je.

 

Friday 13june2208

Lepas subuh, terus gerak gi hosp. 9am abah masuk bilik operation. Bilik surgery ngan ICU tu cam bilik mayat. Sejuk beku. Tengok abah atas katil tu…Uuu-uu rase nak meleleh air mata. Tahannn jgn tak tahannn. Nasib baik ade badut (adik) dalam family nih. Ktorang gelak2 je wat lawak. Abah siap pesan " lepas ni boleh makan tosei". Then ktorang salam salam. Mase salam tu adik siap buat lawak lagi, cakap kat abah " kalo papehal, jangan lupe call"… suit je die. Kalo tak wat funny die tu, tak sah.

Ktorang g lepak rmah maklong, sbb rmah die dekat, dan food die best. Hehe.
Mase rmah maklong, seme orang ganti tdoo. Masing2 tak boleh tdoo malam smalam. Dalam kol 5 ktorang gi hosp balik. Sbb sugery tu dalam 6-7 jam. Masuk hosp trus gi ICU. I saw him. Takot. Sbb mata die tutup rapat sangat-sangat.Rase insaf pon ade. Byk tiub2 kat mulut, kat hidung, kat tangan…everywhere. Ngan monitor lagi sane sini. Ntah la.. takot tengok. Abah still tdoo lagi. So ktorang tunggu kat waiting room.
 

Dalam kol 6pm, mama asked me to check if abah is still sleeping or not. So I went in.
This is the hardest part of my life (so far).

Masuk2 tengok bilik abah di kerumuni nurse. Dalam 6-7 orang kot? Not too sure. Dengar sorang nurse ni cakap "pakcik, bawak btenang". Nurse lain pon cakap gak suh abah btenang. Sorang pegang tangan, sorang pegang kaki die, sorang check kat monitor ….Aku cam lemah lutut. Biar btol ni bilik abah? Aku pegang abah,pegang tangan die. Suruh die btenang, selawat. No use, abah terus struggle. (rase macam bukan die) Abah nak cabut tiub penafasan sebesar paip getah kat dalam mulut , tekak, badan die. Mase orentasi, nurse dah inform, mase sedar nnt, jgn panic, nnt ade bende dalam mulut abah. Tapi abah macam unconscious.

Cakap kat abah "abah, tenang bah, selawat... Wawa ade kat sini" aku pengang tangan abah lagi. No response. Aku cakap la "nnt wawa panggil mama". Then me and mama masuk bilik tu lagi skali. He still struggling ngan tiub2 tu. Die rentap tangan mama suh bukak jugak. He tried to speak , but we cant hear. Bende tu mmg buat abah tak boleh cakap.

I hold his hand again. Tanye nurse sebelah " Nurse, sakit tak bende nih?" she didn't answered . Aku tanye kuat lagi " Nurse, sakit ke tak bende nih???" She replied " sakit la dik, bius dah abes nih. Ayah adik kene tahan skit".. I begin to cry. Sian tengok abah, macam sakit sangat muke die. Meronta2.pestu tengok mama, die cube tenangkan abah. Lemah lutut sangat2. kuar gi waiting room dengan mata yg kabur sangat. Nurse tepi2 tu, orang kat tepi2 tu tengok jer. Tade perasan nak kaver2 dah, nangis je depan orang ramai, sbb tak tahan. Tpakse tinggalkan mama ngan nurse jap. Sbb tak sanggup dah nak tengok.  Panggil adik masuk tengok abah, temankan mama skalik. Aku nangis la kat waiting room tu. Abang aku sampai, tanye nape, aku suh je die masuk. Dalam bebrape minit cube tenangkan diri sendri. Selawat byk2. ingat Allah. Pestu masuk toilet, bersihkan muke. Kluar kluar jer toilet.....terus tengok adik aku tengah menangis kat waiting room tu. Hak elaaaaaaaa.... baruu je nak stop. Die plak nangis jugak. Aku pon continue nangis. Ahahhaha kelakar kan ? haih. Then Roni kuar, die kate doctor tengah kluarkan tiub tu. Adik ngan mak aku dengar bunyik2 ngeri tu. Dengar ayah aku jerit, muntah gtu. Nurse pesan kat die " adik jangan nangis kat sini, sian kat ayah nanti" Uhuhuhuhu seb baik aku tade kat tempat kejadian. Tapi aku boleh la bayangkan. Adik aku yg funny cam badut tu pon boleh kecundang, ni kan aku? Lebam2 gak die nangis. hahahaha best jugak tengok die nangis. ermm i cried sampai pening2 kepale. Setiap kali uncle/aunti datang, mesti melelah air mata. Huhuhuh. Nasib baik derang pinjamkan bahu. Lega sket. Mama pon nangis mase derang datang. Takpe skali skala mnangis ramai ramai, syok gak eh? Ahhaha

Malam tu. Seme orang dah nekad nak tdoo hosp jugak! Tapi nurse datang, suruh ktorang balik, dun worry, sbb abah dah makan ubat tdoo, esok baru sedar. Lagi pon, lepas kol 10pm, die tak kasi sesape masuk, walaopon emergency. So dalam kol 11 cemtu kot, ktorang pon balik. Daripada lapar petang tu, seme tade selera nak makan. Diam je dalam kete. Seme orang layan emosi kot? Ahah letih.

 

Saturday 14june2208

Awal pagi dah sampai. Abah dah bangun. He can talk. Tapi slow sket. Abah still blur2 sket. Mama suapkan breakfast. Uuu-uu suwit. Hehe. Borak-borak sket. Tanye pasal smalam. Abah kata die tak sedar langsung. Mama told abah me and adik cried. Cesss. Malu la plis. Nurse pon gelak2. Derang ckap " Pakcik mesti dah sihat ni, siap bsilat semalam" , " nasib baik ktorang tak bukak tingkap, kalo tak pakcik dah terbang" and another nurse said " kesian anak2 pacik smalam, menangis derang, yg kecik tu siap lebam2 mata". Ahahahah adik aku la tu. At least aku nangis, aku perempuan kan? Ahahahha.. takpe takpe. We cry cause we love him sooo much.

Seharian abah lalok ngan ubat-ubatan. Mostly die tdoo je. Ktorang tunggu sampai malam lagi.

 Sunday 15june2008

Awal pagi dah sampai jugak. As usual, bfast, lunch,tea time and dinner seme mama suapkan. Aku teman jer. Suke tengok mase part food sampai. Suke tengok abah makan. Suke tengok mama suapkan abah. Sbb mama pon suapkan ke mulut sendri. Hihi.

By 5pm abah dah boleh kluar icu, masuk wad bese, Doc said mayb he can discharged by this week. Thursday or Friday. ntah Tengok condition abah camne.

 

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Hmm 4 hari vacation di hosp. tidak best. Rase sakit. Letih fizikal dan mental. Perlu gelak ketawa semule. Perlu satu hari tuk brehat dengan tenang.

esok cuti lagi. MC. selseme hari ni aneh. tanak ilang ilang. bersin jer. tekak pon sakit lagi. nak kene saman doc nih. huhuhu. takpe la kalo cuti bleh gi spital lagi. tengok parents. harini sakit sorang2 jer. tak bes :(

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sudah. dah penat mengisi mase lapang. nak gi makan ubat pestu tdooo lagi..
lame-lame biol otak sbb tdoo jer.

Semoga ade happy ending.

Amin.

"Oleh itu, maka (tetapkanlah kepercayaanmu) bahawa sesungguhnya tiap-tiap kesukaran disertai kemudahan. (Sekali lagi ditegaskan): Bahawa sesungguhnya tiap-tiap kesukaran disertai kemudahan."

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amin.

Owh no…Jue sudah tag gwue.  Tapi entry cam basi sket. Sorry ek jue. Saye memilih penguin!yeh. Penguin ini suke tdoo. Die mengantok 24 hours. Layan……

 
 
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7 RANDOM FACTS ABOUT ME:
- gile kucings
- mpunyai urat gelak yg sangat aktif
- pemaluw (huhuhu)
- tak tetap pendirian (kot?)
- fussy sket.. huhu
- suke botol2 yg cantik
- suke bnyanyi di dalam bilik air

7 THINGS THAT SCARE ME:
- Allah SWT
- im scared of losing people that I really love
- alone and stuck in the lift
- cacing.pacat.ulat.lintah.gamat. dan kawasan sewatktu dengannye.
- back-stabber
- orang gila
- no money

7 RANDOM MUSIC AT THE MOMENT:
- i’m yours by jason mraz
- new soul by yael naim
- shine by anna nalick
- falling slowly by glen hansard & markete irglova
- the ballad of gus and sam by ferraby lionheart
- permintaan hati by letto
- sempurna by andra and the backbone

7 THINGS I SAY THE MOST:
- gile
- kentut
- paham wei
- fine
- ye ke
- psst psst
- wuteva (kot?)

7 THINGS I TREASURE THE MOST:
-myself
-family
-betty. Dan arwah2 kucing yg lain.
-frens
-love
-dignity
-heart

7 “FIRST TIME” THINGS I EVER DID:
- 1^st time camping yg struggle sangat2 + 1^st time away from house for 1 week. 1998.
- 1^st time terjun dari bumbung rmah hanye semata2 mahu menyelamatkan kucing. Mase tu darjah 4  (kot?)
- 1^st time xsiden =( kat puchong. Hit n run. 2006
- 1^st time main gitar . december 2004
- 1^st time gi genting. Dan bjaye naik space shot.yehuu. 2008
- 1^st time main CS. 2007
- 1^st time ade blog. August 2006

 (banyak lagi 1^st time nih..caneh?)

 
7 PEOPLE I TAG:
- abah (dalam diam2 ade blog juge beliau..wuhuhu)
- mr yuppusammy
- jenny from the block (aristotlee)
- penjual nasik lemak
- pencinta alam
- pengetua skolah
- pengembala kambin’